I know who I am and what I stand for
Or at least I thought I did
Living life and its struggles on the daily
Taking the good with the bad
The disappointments and surprises
Believing in myself in one moment
And doubting myself in the next
It was a roller-coaster I was used to
Little did I know
That the ground I felt steady on
Was more like sinking sand
Having found purpose in what I do
And leaving home each day to do important work
The pandemic-induced stay-at-home order felt like a culture shock
What was I expected to do with myself shut behind my door all day every day?
Have zoom meetings, work in isolation and sleep in between?
Thought it was exciting at first
Not having to endure traffic was a pleasure I couldn’t resist
But after some weeks, I kind of missed it
The consistency of a hectic life
The little blowbacks and small victories
Though I love my space as my little sanctuary
I was growing tired of staring at the white walls for too long
What is the need for a sanctuary without chaos outside?
I lost myself a bit, I admit
But I also discovered myself in a new way
My life isn’t to be defined by routine
The mundane, circumstances and consequences
My purpose transcended the expectations others had of me
My purpose lies in what brings my soul satisfaction
Helping someone in need, putting a smile on a face
Meditating, finding peace even in the midst of troubled waters
Showing love all around because now more than ever
I realized we can never overshow love to people
More people out there need it than we think
I was at a comfortable pace before the pandemic
In the midst of it, I had to grow stronger in spirit
And find healing in all the broken places
As we pray the pandemic away
May we not lose sight of all the lessons we have learned
Of ourselves, of people and the world.